im sparated from spouse and far away from my three children 2 of them are grown but baby is 10 i miss them all im also 5 months clean and sober recovering from crack addiction is this depression grief or both
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I would guess that you may be feeling some guilt?? With becoming clean and sober (congrats by the way!) you're probably now realizing how it affected you and your family when you were an addict. Stay focused and know you're pretty much starting over, so start over with a whole new positive outlook. Perhaps make amends with loved ones you may have hurt. Even if they don't accept any appologies, at least you can rest assured you've made amends on your end. good luck.
that is sad ma'am but at least u are clean!!
I think you are dealing with withdrawal. Especially if you used to live with all of your children and your spouse. You've given up something huge in your life (Crack) and you've given up multiple huge relationships (Your family).that's enough to make anyone depressed. Try to keep contact with them daily and find a hobby of some sort. Like reading, crossword puzzles, watching soap operas, cooking etc. It'll distract you until you are reunited with your family.
~Kyuuki
grieving is when someone dies.: You are alive and so are you family members. Rejoice you are clean and will be better able to be the loving caring Mother your family needs.
God Bless keep on track
listen to MBN. i agree totally with what he said. just try to stay clean and don't try to force your way back in. just show them you are a diff. person now and they should see the difference and try to work things out. good luck with life and congrats on the recovery!
The honeymoon is over. We all experience this... the thrill of finding out what is wrong with us, knowing we are not alone after so long carries our sobriety forward. And then one day, we must face our past...crap!
It is depression, it is grief...it is painful to look at what we missed because of our addiction. It is difficult to face the truth, for the first time, of what we put our children through. The hurt we caused, the hurt we felt, can become overwhelming and that is why so many of us relapse.
This is normal, call your sponsor, go to your meetings, isn't depression with someone to talk to, better than the drug...
Stick with your program of recovery, you sound like your doing good, crack is hard...just remember where it took you, what you did, and who you became...and know that is not who you are Darling. Keep it together...I'd be proud to call you MOM.
you just did a big turn around and its hard to deal with, it seems like both, greiving the loss(separated from spouse) and depresed because you miss your kids, and overwhelmed with all of the emotions that come with kicking a drug addiction, try to take a deep breath and stop everything for one minute, and look at your self in a mirror, and look at who you are now and remember who you were 6 months ago! abd be proud of yourself for having the strength to get clean, you will have your kids again and that will give you the motivation to keep going. i wish you the best!
It is probably some grief and sadness. You just miss them. I would only see a doctor or therapist if it is overwhelming. Other then that we all get sad sometimes. My best advice is to see a therapist because they can give you great copping skills. Good Luck and Take Care of yourself.
CONGRATULATIONS ON GETTING OFF OF DRUGS!!!
I'm very happy for you for that big accomplishment! I think you have alot on your plate and are overwhelmed! One thing you could do is, give your troubles to God. He said his burden is light, and ours is heavy, and he can take ours! I think you are sad that you dont have your child with you, and you are sad from being separated. I dont really know your whole situation, but i think you are just lonely. dont worry though, Jesus says "I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you" (John 14:18)
I will be praying for you, and if you want to contact me, do it! Good luck, and keep it up being sober, that is a great accomplishment for you!!
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